She called me in my office today. Although she immediately apologized and said she had the wrong number. She said she was trying to call someone else, picked up the phone, and dialed without thinking. Since she said it was about business I really couldn't bring up personal stuff. I asked her who she wanted and transferred her over. I don't know if she is now trying to torture me or what.
I might end up seeing her tonight though. I signed up for a guest pass at 24 hour fitness and it was the one down in San Jose that she goes to. The reason was because she wanted me to start working out with her. I ended up never going because every time I called her to go she would decide that she didn't want to go afterall. Then I went away on a business trip so I forgot about it.
A couple weeks ago a guy called me and gave me another guest pass to check the club out. I really want to join a gym so I agreed. Now the pass has expired and he wants me to come in get a membership. Well, I had made the appointment for tonight at 8pm. The guy told me to bring workout clothes. So I am going to go and get a membership but only for the Fremont clubs since I have no reason to go to the San Jose clubs anymore. Of course she goes to the gym to work out just about every day and usually it's from about 8 to 10 pm. She might have hulau practice tonight so I might be able to get my membership, do a quick workout, and get out of there before she shows up.
I really would prefer to not see her there and have to confront her in a public place. I hate making public scenes. If she shows up she'll probably be really nice to me and I'll be nice to her. Then she'll tell me to call her when I get home or something.
3:39 p.m. - 2004-08-05
I keep going over things in my head. I can't sort this whole situation, it just doesn't make sense. I think all the way back to how the relationship developed to where it is today and I just can't come up with answers.
We've been friends for a few years now. She broke up with her boyfriend at the very beginning of this year. I got the hint that she liked me at her birthday party earlier this year when she puked on me and kept introducing me to her friends over and over again. In fact everyone assumed I was her new boyfriend from the way she was acting. We talked a bit more frequently from that point on about a ton of stuff.
Then I invited her to the Prince concert and that is where things really clicked. We were in constant contact from the night of the concert on. We really bonded fast. She even got me to talk on the phone, kind of. Then we finally had the DTR talk. The talk was good and it clarified things that I already knew. She didn't want to move fast and I didn't want to push her into anything. In subsequent conversations I even made it clear to her that I would totally understand if she saw other people. I let her know that she would never have to tell me every detail about the time she spent away from me. If she didn't want me around for any particular weekend all she had to say was that she had plans and wouldn't be able to see me. As long as I knew not to expect to see or hear from her I would be totally cool. We kept talking and seeing each other regularly. The last time I saw her was when I went over to watch The Big Lebowski. That was almost a month ago and I haven't seen her since. Getting a hold of her on the phone started getting difficult. She would call me during the day and we would have short conversations. She would tell me to call her when I got home. I would call but get no answer. I'd leave a message and it would either not get returned or she would call after midnight when we were both about to go to sleep, just to say goodnight. I started to get annoyed. When we did talk on the phone though it was great. She didn't ever give a reason for not returning my calls and I didn't want to rock the boat so I never brought it up. I mentioned a few times that I would like to see her and she didn't respond or would have plans. Then when almost none of my calls or text messages were returned I started to get worried. I left her a message at work asking her to go to my friend's birthday dinner. I found out shortly afterwards that she was sick and didn't come in to work so I called her cell phone. She didn't answer the phone but she did return the call right away. Of course she also turned down my invitation which sucked, but she said she was sick so I didn't want to be upset. I called her anyway on Friday just to be sure that she wasn't feeling well enough to go with me. That's when she let me know that she was going out with friends. I didn't want to rock the boat so I didn't ask her about being sick or even bring up the fact that since dinner was right after work she could still go out with her friends later. That was the last contact I had with her regarding personal business. Tomorrow it will be one week since I have heard from her. Even when we were just friends we talked more often than that. I am going out with PieInYourEye and the gang after work tomorrow to get drunk. I am sure that if I don't hear from her by then I will be making a drunken phone call in which I will demand to know what is up once and for all. Actually, the odds are pretty good that I will be leaving a drunken voice mail since she won't pick up the phone.
10:23 a.m. - 2004-08-05
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