Been reading Poocake's old diary before she went to the ghey side. Came across this entry which reminded me of my situation: Tuesday, Mar. 04, 2003 *** Steph Demands Closure... And Gets It!. I feel like I am on the verge of getting my closure but I have felt that before only to have it slip away. If she does not call tonight then another message is going to be sent on MySpace.com since I know she will at least read it (even if she won't reply).
With that, I think I'm done talking negatively about IslandGrl. The fact remains that for several years I have known her as one of the best human beings that I associate with. She was an excellent girlfriend to her ex-boyfriend. She was loyal and loving and supported him 100%. She was a great friend to everyone. All of this made me attracted to her even more.
During our short "whateveryouwanttocallit" together I got to experience many of those things in a way that I couldn't have as "just a friend". I am happy for that opportunity. I don't know how she feels about me now but I know when we were together I made her happy. I know that spending time with me meant something to her, as it did for me.
If she doesn't want to have "whateveryouwanttocallit" with me anymore then that doesn't make her a bad person. I am sure she has her reasons. If she wants to have "whateveryouwanttocallit" with me still then we will have to define things a bit better and be open about our expectations. Hopefully things could then go smoothly.
12:50 p.m. - 2004-08-10
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