I know I don't write about it here but not everything between me and IslandGrl is heartache and disappointment. Actually over the last few weeks there have been signs of good things to come. We talk about things, about us and how we feel about each other. It's reassuring but I don't want to get my hopes up too high until we are actually back to where we were this summer.
I know until then she might just see something better than me and go for that. She almost always tells me that she isn't seeing anyone while we are apart and has no interest in doing so. I know she could just be sparing my feelings though.
She still brings up the trip to Hawaii that we were supposed to take in September. I keep reminding her that it would have been way too awkward for me to go back home with her and stay with her at her parent's house. I mean how would she have introduced me to them? "Hi mom and dad, this is the guy who I was seeing but then I decided about month ago that I wanted to cool things off so I stopped talking to him but then I started calling him like 3 times a day when he thought I dumped him but I still never actually see him anymore but I still asked him to come here to Hawaii with me and meet you guys and he'll be staying in my room even though I know that since you are mormon that is very much against your values." Yeah, that would have been good.
So basically what I'm saying is that I'm still on this rollercoaster of a "relationship". I don't know how long the ride is going to be though.
8:15 a.m. - 2004-11-15
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