So I guess that entry yesterday was straight out of left field. Yes, it was about IslandGrl. For the past month or so I have been living well. I had gone on with my life. I wasn't thinking about her at all. I wasn't sitting around hoping she would want to see me. She actually stopped calling me frequently although we had small chat sessions every now and again. Life was good for el guapo.
Then on Tuesday I got an email from her. The email contained a picture of IslandGrl. She asked me to resize it for her because she didn't know how. She said it was to be her new main picture on MySpace. Being that there has been no drama between us in a while I didn't really think much of it and opened the picture right away.
Boy was I in for a shock. It was a picture of her and two friends but a clear message was being sent to anyone who looked at the picture. The message was that she was a taken woman. Not that she was dating but she was in a serious relationship.
How this happened from the time we saw each other at the end of December I don't know. How this happened after declaring with such force that she made the decision to be single for an extended period of time is even more of a mystery. She declared with such force that even going out on dates would be out of the question at this point in her life.
I got confirmation from several other sources that she is indeed involved with someone although they all say that she is trying to keep it on the down low. From all those sources he is a womanizing asshole. He regularly keeps several girlfriends at a time. In fact one girl he was seeing just found out about IslandGrl and is very pissed off becuase she thought that she was the only one in his life. I'm not going to be there for IslandGrl when/if she realizes who she is with. Honestly I think she will be with this guy for a long time regardless of how he treats her.
Well, I guess I shouldn't have been so surprised. I knew she was lying to me throughout the second half of last year. I knew the reasons given for our breakup were bullshit. This just confirms it. I'd like to say that I don't care. That we were never going to get back together again so it doesn't matter what she does. It does hurt though, it really hurts. I still care about her as a person, or at least I wanted to. This is just another slap in the face and one that has taken any hope of us being friends away from me. She can talk about needing me to be a friend but she has done nothing to deserve my friendship.
I can understand not wanting to be with me but I can't understand wanting to come back for one last kick in the balls. I didn't do anything to her. I didn't treat her bad. I didn't cheat on her. We never fought until after we broke up.
I'll get over this relatively fast. I have no hope to hang on to this time and I've already gone though the heartache of the actual breakup.
8:02 a.m. - 2005-02-10
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