I don't have any specifics about what has been going on since I last posted because it is all kind of a blur. I keep thinking about the situation I have found myself in.
IslandGrl and I talked on the phone for quite a while last night. I really don't know what is up or what is going down. I get the feeling she really really likes me and it scares her. She keeps asking me why I like her as if I don't really have a good reason to.
I'm totally confused as to how to go about all this. As a friend I would tell someone in her situation to take it slow since she just got out of a very serious long relationship. I would tell her to go out and have fun for a while and not get attached to anyone.
I usually stay far far away from girls that have just gotten out of serious relationships for that very reason. I can't stop myself from being a "good friend" and encouraging them to live it up for a while before they think about getting into another relationship. Of course whate then ends up happening is that they either end up back with their ex or another guy comes along and they jump back into a relationship anyway. That leaves me being the perpetual "friend" which really sucks.
I dunno. Part of me wants to tell her that we should just be friends for now and then if things were meant to be we will pick it up later. Another part of me knows that this "meant to be" stuff is pure bullshit and I should fight to make things happen right now. If they don't work out then at least I can say I tried. Either way we are going to be good friends, so why not go with what I really want?
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3:00 p.m. - 2004-06-23
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