I woke up today and Deli Girl called me. She wanted to know if she could come over before she went to work. I told her that it was ok.
She came over but we didn't do anything. I actually just wanted to talk. I wanted to make absolutely sure what her intentions were and let her know what mine were. She repeated that she has had a crush on me and really wants to spend time with me. I asked her if she was sure about the "not getting serious" part and she wasn't looking for anything more than that. She said that she wasn't sure just because she never actually thought that we would talk, or see each other away from where she works. She kinda in her mind has thought about us being together and having a relationship but right now she was happy to just get the chance to actually get to be near me.
I had to explain to her my situation and why it meant that I wasn't going to be developing any feelings if we did start fooling around. I know that I am not with IslandGrl and I am free to do whatever I want without explanation, but the truth is I still have feelings for her and I don't want to make my life any more complicated by getting involved with anyone else. At least not on an emotional level.
She thanked me for being so honest and said she would call me whenever she wanted to hook up. I honestly don't think i will fool around with her if she does call and I'll tell her that if she does call. My head is just so screwed up right now.
6:54 p.m. - 2004-10-06
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